Sorry the words were a bit small last time :P I'll try to make it bigger P.S. Those were quotes from Trevor Ng. He's a really good quote-giver. ;)
Now... MORE QUOTES!!
The road of life is not straight.
There's a curve called failure,
A loop called confusion,
Speed bumps called friends,
Red lights called enemies,
Caution lights called family.
You will have flat tires called jobs
but if you have a spare called determination and an engine called perseverance.
You will make it to a place called success!
"Tears are the words the heart can't express." Miley Cyrus
Being happy doesn't mean everything is perfect. It means you've decided to see beyond the imperfections!
Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain!
And sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.
True friendship comes when silence between two people is comfortable.
There isn't any formula or method, you learn to love by loving.
A man can succeed at anything for which he has unlimited enthusiasm.
Challenges are what makes life interesting. Overcoming them is what makes life meaningful.
Friday, 30 September 2011
Quotes
Some of my favourite quotes ever...
Through all the lies, the sad goodbyes, the things we hide, the tears we've cried, through odds and ends, we've been friends. Though times have passed, the memories last, so always remember, we'll be friends forever. Goodbyes make you think. They make you realize what you had, what you lost and what you've taken for granted. As you left and said your goodbyes, you forgot to tell my heart how to live without you…
Why does it take a minute to say hello and forever to say goodbye?
True friends are like diamonds, precious and rare.
False friends are like leaves, found everywhere.
Today we may part,
but you're in my heart, from now 'till next time we meet.
Finishing a good book is like leaving a good friend.Truly great friends are hard to find, difficult to leave, and impossible to forget.True friends are the ones who never leave your heart, even if they leave your life for a while. Good friends are like stars, you don't always see them but you know that they are there. Friends are forever, you might lose them but you'll never forget them
To the world you may be one person but to one person you may be the world.
It's okay to need each other. That's what makes us strong. That's what makes us human.
Friendship doubles your joys, and divides your sorrows.
Walking with a friend in the dark is better than walking alone in the light
Moving on is simple. It's what we leave behind that's hard. You know a friend is found when you are happy to see them. You know love is found when it hurts to leave them. Sometimes in life there is not enough time to say all the things we need to say, and when it is all over all we can say is goodbye. Your goodbyes are temporary because on one sunny day we will meet again.
It's by chance we met, by choice we became friends. Close friends are truly life's treasures. Sometimes they know us better than we know ourselves. Their presence reminds us that we are never really alone. Don't cry because you are leaving, but smile because you were here. Farewell to those who are leaving and thank you for such a memorable last year of primary!!
Good friends leave, but no matter how many times you experience it, saying goodbye never gets any easier.
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I seriously don't know what to blog about. Any ideas? Anyone?
So recount of what just happened.
1. Read Tilly's and Izzy's blog. You should read theirs, WWAAAYYY better than mines. Tilly's is full of truths and you'll fall in love with it and Izzy's is like reading a good book of a girl trying to change her life. So nice!
2. Writing finale for my first book. I like it although it's quite hard to write. :(
3. Catching Kenneth on Skype. Lemme see if he's there... Yep, he's there but I needa shower soon. Yes, it's 10 at night and I still haven't showered. I've showered later...
4. My hip bone hurts!! On Sunday I fell off Toy Story when he got faster and faster then BAM!! I was looking at his hoof. I was like "WWHHHAAATTT????" When I fell, I landed on my bone. Grrrr... Shoulda landed on my hands but no time to flip or something like that. Then I held my pride and got back on. Phew...
So gotta shower now!! Before I get worms
So recount of what just happened.
1. Read Tilly's and Izzy's blog. You should read theirs, WWAAAYYY better than mines. Tilly's is full of truths and you'll fall in love with it and Izzy's is like reading a good book of a girl trying to change her life. So nice!
2. Writing finale for my first book. I like it although it's quite hard to write. :(
3. Catching Kenneth on Skype. Lemme see if he's there... Yep, he's there but I needa shower soon. Yes, it's 10 at night and I still haven't showered. I've showered later...
4. My hip bone hurts!! On Sunday I fell off Toy Story when he got faster and faster then BAM!! I was looking at his hoof. I was like "WWHHHAAATTT????" When I fell, I landed on my bone. Grrrr... Shoulda landed on my hands but no time to flip or something like that. Then I held my pride and got back on. Phew...
So gotta shower now!! Before I get worms
Thursday, 29 September 2011
Unwanted
Hong Kong. It's one of the best places ever but it would be better if some fucking Mainlanders didn't come down here. Why? Here's why!
1. They buy all our flats and heighten the prices. Well, NO THANK YOU! There are so many Hong Kong residents in HK that needs the homes!! You don't even live in them or let it out for rent. Then fuck off and get your arse outta here.
2. Those pregnant sluts crossover to HK to give birth cuz our healthcare is much better. No, I'm telling you. No. Guess what? We HK people PAY taxes. WE deserve these things, NOT YOU! How do you do it? Well, here's how: They get into HK when they're like 8-10 months pregnant. Then when their water breaks, they just rush into the Emergency room so the doctors have no choice but to tend to the Mainlanders but not the HK people. Then the HK women have to give birth in the hallway. EVEN WHEN THEY RESERVED A BED IN THE HOSPITAL! Damn you. This is HK. It is NOT your playground. It is not where you can just barge in and do whatever you fucking like to. You want good hospital? Go to USA!! Their technology so much more better! You want good hospital then go lah! Why you want to use HK's?
3. You Mainlanders can't even maintain good hygiene. Make the toilets all dirty. So hard to put your thing in the right position izzit? Cannot move a little, izzit? Must make everything so dirty izzit? Cannot put your rubbish in the bin izzit? Don't want to flush izzit? Like the smell of pee and poop so much izzit? Eh, imagine: No cleaners, no street sweepers. How you live then? You die loh! Not anyone's problem. IT"S YOURS! You government can't even keep themselves clean from corruption, how can keep the country clean! So damn useless. So many people don't have jobs, go clean the toilets then! Always go complain, complain. There's job right there and you don't take it.
4. Smoking. Having that thing in your mouth very fun, right? Yeah, keep saying that until you die of cancer. Say that when you go bankrupt because your money all spent on cigarettes. Smoke, smoke, smoke all day. Never tired right? The stench? The people beside you who suffer? Somebody there might have asthma or allergy! Are you going to take responsibility for their sickness or death even? NO! Don't know why you even like to smoke so much. Cannot smoke will die, right?
NEWS FLASH: SMOKING IS HARMFUL AND YOU WILL CERTAINLY DIE. Don't know? Well, too bad for you!
5. No manners. Have some respect for others! Why everyone needs to stay in line and you don't need? You child of who? Hu Jin Tao? Wen Jia Bao? If not, then get your ass to the back of the line and line up! And stop shouting. You think everyone is deaf right? Why shout? Cannot shout will die ah? You shout, shout, shout, everyone hear you and know everything. They can sabo you for a crime. They can know your address and rob your home. You want? Then shout louder! Always say in school "Must have manners" Well, I don't see it!
1. They buy all our flats and heighten the prices. Well, NO THANK YOU! There are so many Hong Kong residents in HK that needs the homes!! You don't even live in them or let it out for rent. Then fuck off and get your arse outta here.
2. Those pregnant sluts crossover to HK to give birth cuz our healthcare is much better. No, I'm telling you. No. Guess what? We HK people PAY taxes. WE deserve these things, NOT YOU! How do you do it? Well, here's how: They get into HK when they're like 8-10 months pregnant. Then when their water breaks, they just rush into the Emergency room so the doctors have no choice but to tend to the Mainlanders but not the HK people. Then the HK women have to give birth in the hallway. EVEN WHEN THEY RESERVED A BED IN THE HOSPITAL! Damn you. This is HK. It is NOT your playground. It is not where you can just barge in and do whatever you fucking like to. You want good hospital? Go to USA!! Their technology so much more better! You want good hospital then go lah! Why you want to use HK's?
3. You Mainlanders can't even maintain good hygiene. Make the toilets all dirty. So hard to put your thing in the right position izzit? Cannot move a little, izzit? Must make everything so dirty izzit? Cannot put your rubbish in the bin izzit? Don't want to flush izzit? Like the smell of pee and poop so much izzit? Eh, imagine: No cleaners, no street sweepers. How you live then? You die loh! Not anyone's problem. IT"S YOURS! You government can't even keep themselves clean from corruption, how can keep the country clean! So damn useless. So many people don't have jobs, go clean the toilets then! Always go complain, complain. There's job right there and you don't take it.
4. Smoking. Having that thing in your mouth very fun, right? Yeah, keep saying that until you die of cancer. Say that when you go bankrupt because your money all spent on cigarettes. Smoke, smoke, smoke all day. Never tired right? The stench? The people beside you who suffer? Somebody there might have asthma or allergy! Are you going to take responsibility for their sickness or death even? NO! Don't know why you even like to smoke so much. Cannot smoke will die, right?
NEWS FLASH: SMOKING IS HARMFUL AND YOU WILL CERTAINLY DIE. Don't know? Well, too bad for you!
5. No manners. Have some respect for others! Why everyone needs to stay in line and you don't need? You child of who? Hu Jin Tao? Wen Jia Bao? If not, then get your ass to the back of the line and line up! And stop shouting. You think everyone is deaf right? Why shout? Cannot shout will die ah? You shout, shout, shout, everyone hear you and know everything. They can sabo you for a crime. They can know your address and rob your home. You want? Then shout louder! Always say in school "Must have manners" Well, I don't see it!
Just plain stupid
My school I'm attending right now is a damn local school. They speak Cantonese. Fuck it.
I grew up in an English and Putonghua environment. Mom, Dad, you can't see that? Then just go to mental hospital and have a brain check up. After that, go fuck yourself.
I hate Cantonese. But my classmates can't live without it. They love it. They don't wanna learn anything else. Just damn Cantonese.
Well, bitches. WAKE UP! The world isn't just Hong Kong! There's America. Europe. Asia. Say the fucking Cantonese there and no one will bother! I wouldn't be surprised if they say 'what the hell are you talking about?' BECAUSE NO ONE DAMN KNOWS! Learn language? English and Putonghua is best. Loads of Americans are learning Putonghua, parts of Europe are learning it. The whole China is learning it, some parts of Asia is learning it. You say it, some people might understand it.
Don't wanna learn English? Too bad for you. Just Cantonese? Americans can't understand you, Europeans can't understand you, some Asians can't understand you, Russians can't understand you, Australians can't understand you. Wanna get jobs or study there? In your dreams!
Cantonese so good izzit? Yeah, yeah, whatever. Go say it in another country, they look at you like you're alien or something! Call yourselves Women of Excellence, right? Go somewhere far away and try to do something excellent there, cannot, right?
Just Cantonese, izzit?
I grew up in an English and Putonghua environment. Mom, Dad, you can't see that? Then just go to mental hospital and have a brain check up. After that, go fuck yourself.
I hate Cantonese. But my classmates can't live without it. They love it. They don't wanna learn anything else. Just damn Cantonese.
Well, bitches. WAKE UP! The world isn't just Hong Kong! There's America. Europe. Asia. Say the fucking Cantonese there and no one will bother! I wouldn't be surprised if they say 'what the hell are you talking about?' BECAUSE NO ONE DAMN KNOWS! Learn language? English and Putonghua is best. Loads of Americans are learning Putonghua, parts of Europe are learning it. The whole China is learning it, some parts of Asia is learning it. You say it, some people might understand it.
Don't wanna learn English? Too bad for you. Just Cantonese? Americans can't understand you, Europeans can't understand you, some Asians can't understand you, Russians can't understand you, Australians can't understand you. Wanna get jobs or study there? In your dreams!
Cantonese so good izzit? Yeah, yeah, whatever. Go say it in another country, they look at you like you're alien or something! Call yourselves Women of Excellence, right? Go somewhere far away and try to do something excellent there, cannot, right?
Just Cantonese, izzit?
When missing you wasn’t an option, it became a part of life
I miss the times when I was carefree. And worry free. I have so much to think about and I have so much stress.
I miss the times when I felt secure, at home. But now it feels like I'm out on my own, no one to turn to, no one to confide in. My parents won't bother or even try to understand. I can contact my friends by FB or Skype but I want that feeling that they're there. The warmth. Their presence. Their sound. Not just their words or picture.
I miss the times when I could actually laugh at something. Like tears-of-happiness-slash-OMG-that-is-so-damn-hilarious-slash-everything's-going-to-be-okay laugh. I don't laugh anymore, much rather smile.
I miss my friends. My RE teacher asked about my friends and I felt like my heart stopped and my brain was filled with memories instantly. I didn't know where to start.
Wednesday, 28 September 2011
College Dream
I really damn want to go to college NOW. I really want to fucking leave. I HATE my school so I'd rather get away from everything. I would be away from my parents. Yes!! I can learn how to be independent. Yes!! What's not to like? So I told my parents that.
So convo time...
Me: I wanna go to England to study, like next year. I don't want to stay in HK.
Them: No! How can you take care of yourself?
Me: I know a P1 that went to England by herself. Besides, I'll make friends there!
Them: We only have one kid.
Me: So? Communicate by FB? Skype?
Them: Dunno how to!
Me: LEARN!!
Them: We raised you by our own hard work and you want to leave us?
Me: I'm not leaving you! I'm just going somewhere else to study! I'll come back in the holidays! I'm just getting a better education so I can get a good job and earn money!!
Them: We're not letting you because we said so.
Me *thinking*: I am so leaving ;)
So convo time...
Me: I wanna go to England to study, like next year. I don't want to stay in HK.
Them: No! How can you take care of yourself?
Me: I know a P1 that went to England by herself. Besides, I'll make friends there!
Them: We only have one kid.
Me: So? Communicate by FB? Skype?
Them: Dunno how to!
Me: LEARN!!
Them: We raised you by our own hard work and you want to leave us?
Me: I'm not leaving you! I'm just going somewhere else to study! I'll come back in the holidays! I'm just getting a better education so I can get a good job and earn money!!
Them: We're not letting you because we said so.
Me *thinking*: I am so leaving ;)
Monday, 26 September 2011
Leave it all to me
I FINALLY got to do something with my book I'm co-writing! I've been begging Kenneth for something and I got A LOT of things!! Turns out I have to write something for a castle, something about the Barrier Reef that includes water-skiing and... Can't say anymore! But A LOT!! Oooohh!! Gonna be very busy!! I like it ;)
Anyways, I got these assignments by skyping with him.
Note to self: NEVER EVER video chat with a boy for 2 hours at one in the morning!!!
1. He can say the weirdest stuff ever
2. You don't want anyone to see you again in your most embarrassing PJ's-and-or-bedsheets (it was the fucking little mermaid I wanted when I was 5!!)
Besides the book, we were also talking how fucked up our lives were. It was ok, actually it was nice to tell someone my troubles. Thanks Kenneth :)
Him: My life is really fucked up... (goes on abt his life)
Me: Yea! I know! Like... (goes on abt my life)
*in the middle*
Me: I'm hungry
Him (giving me his WTF stare): You are so random...
Hehe! :)
Anyways, I got these assignments by skyping with him.
Note to self: NEVER EVER video chat with a boy for 2 hours at one in the morning!!!
1. He can say the weirdest stuff ever
2. You don't want anyone to see you again in your most embarrassing PJ's-and-or-bedsheets (it was the fucking little mermaid I wanted when I was 5!!)
Besides the book, we were also talking how fucked up our lives were. It was ok, actually it was nice to tell someone my troubles. Thanks Kenneth :)
Him: My life is really fucked up... (goes on abt his life)
Me: Yea! I know! Like... (goes on abt my life)
*in the middle*
Me: I'm hungry
Him (giving me his WTF stare): You are so random...
Hehe! :)
Sunday, 25 September 2011
Out of sight, out of time
I want to be brainwashed, so badly. I want to be wiped of everything. I want to leave my home. I don't want to be perfect. I don't want to be oh-so-goodie-goodie anymore. I want to climb a tree, see the whole world. Feel the wind blowing across my face, comforting me. No more worries. No more worrying about homework, exam results or whatever fucking shit I am worrying about...
Flying, like a bird
I've changed the background of my blog. It's like a postcard or letter with all the stamps and stuff. I love it. Ever since I was a little kid, I've always wanted to leave home.
To explore the world.
To see every corner.
To know every culture.
I want to go beyond my neighbor hood. Maybe somewhere exotic. Somewhere still hidden. Somewhere far away.
Even in studies, I want to go on camps, immersion programs, go to boarding school in England.
When I grow up, I want to be able to travel to different parts of the world. Maybe sometime I’ll be an air stewardess, a pilot even! Like Amelia Earhart! I’ve always dreamed of learning how to fly a plane. I think that’s what I really want. To be up in the air, soaring, airborne, in the sky… Perfect.
Or I could follow my dream and join the Hong Kong team for horse riding and I can compete in different parts of the world. Yep, that would be awesome!
I want to get to the top of Everest, I want to go to the deepest seabed, I want to get to the other end of the universe.
I want to get away from everything.
Until there's nowhere but up. (It's from a JB song but I seriously find him annoying and disgusting)
Saturday, 24 September 2011
CIA agent, this is for you
I have this pal called Joseph. He's just amazing. He's the best person I've ever met. He's really smart, well-mannered, stuff like that. But he get bullied really easily, in Art class, people pour glue down his pants. In classes, he usually answers all the questions, hands in homework on time, get really high marks every time. And a lot of people says he's irritating.
Well, STFU. He is A-M-A-Z-I-N-G. He works so hard to get high marks so he can get in a good university and get a good job and have a good life. Don't say he's a wannabe. You want that too.
He's gentle, well-mannered and laughs along with you. WHY? Because he doesn't want you to get in so much trouble if he cried or anything. Don't take it for granted.
He answers all the teachers questions. He does that and we don't have to pay 100% attention in class so we don't get in trouble if the teacher asks us something and we have no idea. With that, we couldn't do alot of things. Doing homework underneath the desk, texting without looking, sneaking food into our mouths... Again, don't take it for granted.
He doesn't have much friends. He's a bit overweight. And look, he's pushing himself to take time off studies and exercise. To him, that is torture.
Why don't you get into his shoes first before you comment on his shirt?
Well, STFU. He is A-M-A-Z-I-N-G. He works so hard to get high marks so he can get in a good university and get a good job and have a good life. Don't say he's a wannabe. You want that too.
He's gentle, well-mannered and laughs along with you. WHY? Because he doesn't want you to get in so much trouble if he cried or anything. Don't take it for granted.
He answers all the teachers questions. He does that and we don't have to pay 100% attention in class so we don't get in trouble if the teacher asks us something and we have no idea. With that, we couldn't do alot of things. Doing homework underneath the desk, texting without looking, sneaking food into our mouths... Again, don't take it for granted.
He doesn't have much friends. He's a bit overweight. And look, he's pushing himself to take time off studies and exercise. To him, that is torture.
Why don't you get into his shoes first before you comment on his shirt?
Friday, 23 September 2011
I cry more than I smile
DEFINITELY NOT out of depression yet. I'm so thinking of death.
Every time I'm on the bus, I want another vehicle to hit me, head on so I can die immediately, without pain, without a second thought. When I'm walking on the street, I want a banner, a metal sign to fucking fall and hit me and crush every bone in my body, no pain, no fuss and bye-bye world. Or maybe by some strike of evil, an earthquake happens and I die within seconds. Or at an hotspot like Causeway Bay, some evil guy will place a bomb there as a terrorist attack and I happen to be standing next to it then BAM!!! I disintegrate before I fucking know it.
But I really want to live. I want to join the Olympics for Horse Riding. I want to go to boarding school. I want to go to my dream university. I want to have a family and raise my parents because they raised me. I want to get my dream job. I want to travel the world, ride the scariest roller coasters ever. I want to retire and write a few novels. I want to see the book I'm writing now to be published soon. I want to live a full life. But I don't know. Maybe I should pack all my stuff when my folks are out and pursue my dream alone, but I don't have the money.
I don't have the power. I'm just a kid. Just a kid.
I found another 2 fucking reasons I loathe this bitch school.
1. I'm from an INTERNATIONAL SCHOOL. Emphasis on the INTERNATIONAL!! My sec school is a LOCAL SCHOOL. EVERYTHING is different!! Syllabus. Math, English, Science is way harder at my previous school so it's not nice to be stuck on the same thing for almost a year until I get to know something new. C'mon, I don't go to school to revise! I go to school to learn new stuff!!!!
2. NO ONE IN THE FUCKING SCHOOL THINKS LIKE ME OR JOSE (my greatest friend ever, she came from my previous school so we get along real nice). It's so annoying to explain EVERYTHING!! No one gets us, not ever.
My dad just asked me why I was so sad and never smiled. I just stared at him and continued eating dinner.
My mom asked me the same and I wanted to scream at them "I HATE THIS SCHOOL!! IT'S CAUSING ME SO MUCH PAIN! IF YOU CAN'T SEE THAT, WHY ARE YOU STILL ALIVE? I'M NOT THE SMART ONE, THE OLDER ONE, THE PARENT. YOU FUCKING ARE! WHY CAN'T YOU OPEN YOUR DAMN MIND AND LOOK AT THE BIG PICTURE!!"
Then I want to break down in front of them. And cry. And cry.
Then I want to run. Run until the sun dies out. Run until I leave all my sorrows and pain behind.
Run until my heart is free of sadness and full of happiness.
Just keep running.
Keep running.
Every time I'm on the bus, I want another vehicle to hit me, head on so I can die immediately, without pain, without a second thought. When I'm walking on the street, I want a banner, a metal sign to fucking fall and hit me and crush every bone in my body, no pain, no fuss and bye-bye world. Or maybe by some strike of evil, an earthquake happens and I die within seconds. Or at an hotspot like Causeway Bay, some evil guy will place a bomb there as a terrorist attack and I happen to be standing next to it then BAM!!! I disintegrate before I fucking know it.
But I really want to live. I want to join the Olympics for Horse Riding. I want to go to boarding school. I want to go to my dream university. I want to have a family and raise my parents because they raised me. I want to get my dream job. I want to travel the world, ride the scariest roller coasters ever. I want to retire and write a few novels. I want to see the book I'm writing now to be published soon. I want to live a full life. But I don't know. Maybe I should pack all my stuff when my folks are out and pursue my dream alone, but I don't have the money.
I don't have the power. I'm just a kid. Just a kid.
I found another 2 fucking reasons I loathe this bitch school.
1. I'm from an INTERNATIONAL SCHOOL. Emphasis on the INTERNATIONAL!! My sec school is a LOCAL SCHOOL. EVERYTHING is different!! Syllabus. Math, English, Science is way harder at my previous school so it's not nice to be stuck on the same thing for almost a year until I get to know something new. C'mon, I don't go to school to revise! I go to school to learn new stuff!!!!
2. NO ONE IN THE FUCKING SCHOOL THINKS LIKE ME OR JOSE (my greatest friend ever, she came from my previous school so we get along real nice). It's so annoying to explain EVERYTHING!! No one gets us, not ever.
My dad just asked me why I was so sad and never smiled. I just stared at him and continued eating dinner.
My mom asked me the same and I wanted to scream at them "I HATE THIS SCHOOL!! IT'S CAUSING ME SO MUCH PAIN! IF YOU CAN'T SEE THAT, WHY ARE YOU STILL ALIVE? I'M NOT THE SMART ONE, THE OLDER ONE, THE PARENT. YOU FUCKING ARE! WHY CAN'T YOU OPEN YOUR DAMN MIND AND LOOK AT THE BIG PICTURE!!"
Then I want to break down in front of them. And cry. And cry.
Then I want to run. Run until the sun dies out. Run until I leave all my sorrows and pain behind.
Run until my heart is free of sadness and full of happiness.
Just keep running.
Keep running.
Monday, 19 September 2011
Only one good thing
Sorry, haven't blogged much. Homework is WWWAAAYYY tough. You don't hand in, you lose marks. After three days, still don't hand in, no marks BUT you still need to effing do it. Like STFU bitch. Not out of depression yet. Still cry twice every week, something like that.
Anyways, onto better stuff. It was Swim Heats on Friday. EVERYONE HAD to go. T^T WHYYYY!!!??? IT'S JUST SWIM HEATS!! But me and me super awesome gal, Jose, snuck out to the girls bathroom and camped out in this small cramped cubicle for three hours until it was finally OVER!! :D It's Swim Meet tomorrow. Gonna do the same thing except that we'll have food. iPods. Phones. It will be GOOOOD (well, as good as you can get in a damn toilet)
So, as usual. Start of school=Character profile. We had to put our fave books on it and I put Emblems: Life on the Line (book I'm co-writing) Everyone just stared at it and wondered why they didn't hear it. Ever. I just smiled and said "It's still in the making, it'll be out in X'mas!" They totally FREAKED OUT!! I kinda felt good ;)
Gotta go now!
Love,
Ruby :)
Anyways, onto better stuff. It was Swim Heats on Friday. EVERYONE HAD to go. T^T WHYYYY!!!??? IT'S JUST SWIM HEATS!! But me and me super awesome gal, Jose, snuck out to the girls bathroom and camped out in this small cramped cubicle for three hours until it was finally OVER!! :D It's Swim Meet tomorrow. Gonna do the same thing except that we'll have food. iPods. Phones. It will be GOOOOD (well, as good as you can get in a damn toilet)
So, as usual. Start of school=Character profile. We had to put our fave books on it and I put Emblems: Life on the Line (book I'm co-writing) Everyone just stared at it and wondered why they didn't hear it. Ever. I just smiled and said "It's still in the making, it'll be out in X'mas!" They totally FREAKED OUT!! I kinda felt good ;)
Gotta go now!
Love,
Ruby :)
Monday, 5 September 2011
devastation
i started school, not going well. i hate it. i don't care what the older girls say about it being a real spirited school and other crap. i was forced to do all kinds of stupid things, i'm not a christian. although i respect them, i don't want to sing hymns and say prayers all day long. even jose says that and she's a Christian. i am just sick of hearing that God will help me and if I believed in him, he would make my life better. well, been there, done that. i still ended up at this crappy school.
i just can't get used to it. i really loved my previous school. i really do. but its a major change. i don't know if i can handle it. i feel sick to my stomach.
i cry every night in the shower, before i fall asleep, when i'm doing homework... i can't be happy. i think i'm in depression. i've heard stories, i think i'm changing into one of them. maybe i'll end up with severe depression, no one can see my pain behind my smile. i hate it...
i just can't get used to it. i really loved my previous school. i really do. but its a major change. i don't know if i can handle it. i feel sick to my stomach.
i cry every night in the shower, before i fall asleep, when i'm doing homework... i can't be happy. i think i'm in depression. i've heard stories, i think i'm changing into one of them. maybe i'll end up with severe depression, no one can see my pain behind my smile. i hate it...
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