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Hi there fellow Internet users.

I haven't blogged for an entire week because of bloody exams. I'm really freaked about History and Geography since something went wrong there and I'm pretty sure I'll screw Math up to the third degree. I'm seriously scared that I'll run out of time or I've forgotten a formula or whatever. So bottom line, I'm buckling under pressure.

Fortunately, after Math (which is tomorrow), it's the chinese oral, science and chinese history. You can't exactly revise for oral and I'm alright for science so I can devote 85% of my time for Chinese History, which is kind of my worst subject next to math. And after all that, summer... Finally.

So besides exams, I've had some sort of crisis happening in my life. Erm, relationship problems. I'm not going to type it all out right now, in the middle of examination period and I need some time for it to sink in before I can shuffle all my loose and wild thoughts into something orderly and throw it at Word.

But basically and what you all need to know now is that I'm giving up on someone. Wait, correction. I'm trying to give up on someone because my logical side is telling me that I've been waiting too long for him and I'm telling myself to move on. Some people might think I'm giving up too early because I've never even had the chance to ever confess but you know what, I'll save myself the heartbreak and just trample on it myself.

Unluckily, trampling on your own hopes and wishes means more pain. Man, I like to inflict pain on myself now. Both emotionally, physically and sometimes mentally.

So yeah. I'm watching myself break my own heart now.

[This is merely an update that I managed to squeeze in while throttling myself over exams so afterwards, you'll get a proper update (with pictures and everything) on how I'm getting on and thoughts about this relationship problem because I kinda need to rant, to a non-living thing that completely understands me. ERGO, my Mac. So wait until 19th of June and I'll be back on track.]