I Take You Where You Need To Go: Evince

Hello! :) It's been quite a while since I last posted because of the bloody exams. I feel super freaked now and I'm just revising like crazy...so I convinced myself to take a little break today since it's the weekend! And I had a sudden urge to make a new Pottermore account. So I just did that and guess what? I got sorted into Slytherin again. Yay! I love Slytherin. It really does suit me.

Twelve Reasons Why I’m In Slytherin House:

1) I’m ambitious and determined. If I have enough motivation, I will work to what I want. I will get it at all costs. I don’t care what or who is in my way but if I want it, I will get it.

Life is about getting what you want and protecting who you love. Everything else is weakness.

2) I’m calculating. Not exactly in the scheming way, though, although I do scheme sometimes. I analyze the situation, identify the greatest threat, weight my options and see what’s best for me. There’s going to be some sacrifices along the way but usually, I make sure I benefit as much as possible.

3) I’m arrogant and conceited. Believe it or not, I am one of the most arrogant and conceited person I know. I have all these fantasies of my being the center of the universe. I daydream that I’m just super famous and filthy rich and everyone just loves me. I tell you, I relish in those daydreams and you have no idea how much I am willing to pay to make them a reality. And I just realized that I almost never think of other’s feelings. I think I’m really too selfish and conceited. And I think I just boast WAY too much about myself sometimes. Sometimes I look at myself and think ‘Oh, my goodness. She really does think she’s so important to the universe, doesn’t she?’ And ‘who cares about what she does? It’s not like it has anything to do with anyone!’ Yeah, sometimes when I read my tweets and posts, I feel that I’m just too arrogant.

And since I'm just too big-headed for my own good, I find it hard to apologize sometimes for really hard-core stuff so if I do apologize to you with a long speech and stuff like that, you'd better appreciate it because you're fucking special.

4) I’m not all good and I work my way around rules ever since I was a kid. When my mom asked me to write down all the extra studying/reading I did in the day, I cheated by not giving it a 100% (like not reading the whole Chinese book and taking really long breaks when practicing the piano) then I would write it down and my mom thought I had spent eight hours working. And I got extra dessert after dinner. I’ve been forging my mom’s signature ever since I was three. I’ve stole from people before. And I’ve purposely downplayed every single failure I get so my mom doesn’t know the full story ever since I was in kindergarten.

5) I try to be as strong and resilient as I can. My mom says I can withstand a lot of pressure and workload. Most people think I’m bulletproof. One person told me, ‘Gosh, it’s really hard to imagine you crying.’ I kid you not but that was one of the most amazing things anyone can say to me. It was totally worth the tears when this person said it and I would like to take this opportunity to thank him because he probably has no idea how many times I’ve replayed him saying that in my head when I’m on the verge of losing my sanity. I try so hard to stay strong because I don’t want people to give me so much more attention than I need. Okay, so I will surely die young because of cancer since it runs in my family. Big deal. (There goes the Slytherin arrogance…)

6) I value loyalty and sacrifice. I value loyalty more than you can ever imagine, trust me. If anyone is disloyal, I will get seriously pissed. I take care of those who are on my side, I keep an eye out for them and I will stand for them. And I expect you to do the same. We are part of the elite and the elite know better than to be traitors. I hold people who sacrifice for what they believe in and who they love in highest regard. Why? Because I’m not sure if I can do that. I’m not sure if I have the guts. But perhaps if the occasion demands, I will.

7) I am proud of family. This does not necessarily apply to blood relation but friends who are practically family. You know, the SIS family and the Diocesan family. I do think I belong to both, I will stand up for both, I am proud of both and I am loyal to both but I’m not that hard-core and freaking obsessed. I might not be always going out to scream ‘I’m part of them and I love it!’ but inside, I am proud of them. (But if you ask me to chose between SIS and Diocesans, I cannot answer you. It would be like ‘Do you love your mom or you dad more?’ You can’t answer all questions.)

8) I have plans, lots and lots of them. If you’ve read my blog carefully, you’ll realize that I have plans, many of them. I try to imagine as many scenarios as possible and work out back-ups and alternative routes. I have Alpha, Beta, Charlie, and Delta…all the way down to Omega plan. But, of course, most of the time, I them out along the way.

9) I have no patience for stupidity. No, I don’t mean book smarts but how you react and your wit. If you dim and you can’t catch on to what I’m saying, I lose my patience and just carry on without you. Take my dad for example, I explain every single detail of something to him and later on, he’ll ask me to repeat each word again because my words are too, direct quote, ‘confusing and brain cell demanding’. So sometimes I get seriously mad at him. Then once, he actually searched on Google about Harry Potter wands that I wanted to buy in England. Then he told me that there were too many wands to chose from and asked me if I was sure to know which character’s wand I wanted. He also told me that the wands were too confusing to choose from and had the nerves to advise me to not buy it. Well, that’s rich coming from someone who has never read a page of Harry Potter in his life and hasn’t even sat through a single scene of any of the eight movies. And what was worse was he actually thought that the wands would be made out of the woods that were stated in the book. So when one of his students informed him that the wand wasn’t really made out of holly wood, he again told me to rethink my decision about buying a wand! (Inserts ‘You don’t say?’ face.) Hasn’t he ever thought that I don’t expect the wands to be made out of the real type of wood? Hasn’t he ever thought that I had already researched on the merchandise I want to buy already like a normal Potterhead? I mean, I’m not seven anymore, Daddy!

10) I believe in my own strength. Unlike my mother and aunts, I don’t plan to sit around, waiting for some Prince Charming to come around and sweep me off my feet. My aunt thinks I should only be smart to attract guys. My mother didn’t do much to get my dad. This is just a horrible waste of talent. I don’t believe in fairytales, there is no Prince Charming for anyone, only idiots trying to get into your pants. So I try to turn the situation around and play to my own strengths. There will not be any wanker on a white horse to gallop to rescue me. Heck, I will be on that horse and galloping to save myself. I will not just sit here and twiddle my thumbs when people are out there fighting and working. I will be at the front, in the middle of the actions. I will go out and get my own happy ending.

11) I am misunderstood for most of the time. Many people have never imagined that I value manners a lot. I don’t care if you're the president or whoever but you are going to ask politely first if you want anything from me. If you don’t ask, I won’t give it to you unless you’re in a life-death situation or I know you like a sibling. And I strongly support the unwritten rule of the guy asking the girl out first. If you make the girl ask you out then fucking shame on you. What kind of guy is this? Who raised him? Ophelia didn’t know about that for a long time and she actually thought that I wouldn’t mind. WHAT? Yes, I do mind. I guess people misunderstand me so much is because I don’t show my true self too often. I express myself easiest in writing. So people who know me and read this blog are actually very luck to see a side of me that you can hardly see at school or when we meet face to face. But, of course, there will a part of me that no one will ever, truly understand.

12) I don’t trust people easily. Trust is something you have to earn from me and you won’t be having it from our very first meeting. But I will be honest with you. If you want me to be honest, you ask for it first. If you don’t, it’ll be hard to get anything out of me. And if you abuse my trust, I won’t let you go that easily. Of course, I don’t expect you to trust me either. In fact, I don’t exactly respect people who are…too honest and trusting. Because when you don’t trust people, you are always analyzing what they might do next and you expect everything unexpected from them. But you never expect people to show their true intentions so easily and this makes them do something…stupid and it will probably catch you off guard as well. But sometimes I enjoy it when people don’t trust me but I tell them the truth. I know that they will never believe me even when I say the truth and the ending is always hilarious…

And there you have it- 12 reasons why I’m in Slytherin. Savvy?

I've noticed that Slytherins and Gryffies are pretty similiar. We're stubborn and value chivalry. But I don't like it when people just have this crazy want for others to understand them and they just overflow with emotion. Wearing their hearts on their sleeves, that's the flaw of the lions. Fortunately, the serpents use it as an advantage.