First of all, I’d like to thank all of you who have put up with the ridiculous speed of this Fanfiction. I uploaded the whole thing in the matter of 24-hours. I don’t know why I was so impatient for this one. Maybe I have too much time on my hands these days or maybe this Fanfiction was extremely exciting for me. There were a lot of twists and turns in this one and I was super hyped for my dear readers to finish it.
Second of all, I’d like to give 90% of credits to the amazing authors on HPFanfiction.com because they have been the best teachers and inspiration an aspiring author could ever have. Ever. Thank you for the awesome ideas and most of all, the quotes you’ve inspired me to write.
(There weren’t a lot of quotes in this one but I promise there are quite a lot in the ‘seventh year and beyond’ Fanfiction. Again, I am really excited for all of you to read it but I’m afraid it’ll take a long time. I’m still brainstorming on the events, then I need to arrange the events in the proper order then I can actually START writing the first chapter…so yeah, it’s going to take A LOT of time and work but it’s damned WORTH IT.)
Anyways, as I said earlier, this fanfic had a great impact on my life. I’ve changed quite a lot over writing this one. My views on the world have changed. The phrases ‘someone who’s WORTH it’ and ‘you only live once’ and ‘I’m upset/afraid’ and most importantly, ‘I understand’ mean A LOT more than I could ever imagine. Then my writing style has changed for some weird reason. And I think I’ve gotten more like James. From the ‘I’m happy because I got rejected’ part to the ‘weird character changing phase’. Some of my friends can see it. Hell, even I can feel it and when I can feel it…well, let’s just say something happened. Something big.
Okay, moving on to the MAIN topic- my fanfic.
Notice Carly Carrington.
At the start of the year, she was so sweet. She was a very, very nice person. What happened? James happened. Carly is a common example of what girls can change into when they are mistreated. Lily wasn’t as bad when Alex Johnson dumped her because James/Severus was there to catch her at the end. But Carly had no one. She got cheated and hurt more than you can ever imagine. She changed from a good girl to…let’s put it this way, bitchier because she felt insecure and got neglected. This is really inhumane, seeing what you can do to other people. So please, to everyone out there, enough players and stop all the lies. It’ll just get worse. (Well, unless your intentions are for the better. That, I can make an exception.)
And I hate Carly Carrington. Honestly, I don’t give a damn if she’s the nicest and/or smartest girl in the world. Call me bias or whatever but she with James. That’s just sad.
Next point¾ The Writing Process.
Okay, these Fanfictions aren’t like compos. Like, you need to plan out EVERY SINGLE DETAIL before you can put your pen to paper. No, I don’t exactly do it like that. First, I set a target. For example ‘Hurt the heart and soul of Carly Carrington’. So I come up with lots and lots of ideas on how to hurt her. I don’t pick my favorite. I don’t pick the longest/shortest. I pick the ones that seem right. I don’t 100% stick to the idea either. Sometimes I mix up the ideas together. And I don’t plan out all the scenes. I usually improvise on some lines and stuff like that so most of the time, I get something that didn’t even bloody cross my mind even once. That is pretty darn awesome.
When I finally have enough ideas and arrange the order of events, I put my pen to paper. If you lucky enough to see me around when I’m writing, you will probably notice that I will drift away from reality sometimes. I will suddenly spout nonsense about my story and grab every opportunity to write a couple lines or something.
Basically, I get seriously obsessed with it.
I’m always thinking, thinking and thinking on how to make the story run more smoothly. Questions like ‘What if I put it this way?’, ‘What if I tell it from this person’s POV?’, ‘What if I twisted the lines around?’… Yeah, my mind is just buzzing with all of these questions and unfortunately, some of them really stump me. I got writers’ block a couple of times during the writing of this particular Fanfiction because there is so much EMOTION and DRAMA and TENSION. (Yep, those three words are the most horrible words on Earth. It’s bleeding confusing…)
When I actually work on it in front of my Mac, I just get really happy. Heck, I smile when I type it out. I don’t know why. I think I escape to this place call ‘my happy universe where everything is possible and everything makes me happier since it’s NOT REALITY’. Sometimes, when I’m writing an exciting scene, my fingers literally fly over the keyboard because I’m fuelled with the excitement of reading the whole chapter at the end of the day. It’s a kind of strength that I never knew I had.
When I do get to read it at the end of the day, there is nothing more magical. I’m just so surprised that I actually could think of these things. Sometimes I even go, “Bloody hell, did I really write this?”
But the BEST PART is when I get to see the chapters on my blog. You know, your hard work is finally debuted to the world. You can heave a sigh of relief and most importantly, SATISFACTION. Yeah, satisfaction is really the overwhelming feeling when I read my story on my blog. It’s amazing. So damned overwhelming.
This is how my Mac screen usually looks like when I'm working on the fanfictions. There's iTunes blasting in the corner. The one I'm working on is the left Word docx. The inspiration is the one in the middle and the previous fanfiction (the one that has Alex in it) is on the right so I can check that I didn't get any facts wrong. And if you look closely, you can see that the time is on Sunday morning at 3.00am. Yeah, that's how late I will work until. (And I have to wake up the next morning to go to riding class. Sigh...)
Another brilliant phenomenon during writing is when I get reviews. I don’t care if it’s good or bad. As long as it’s constrictive, I will take it under consideration. I really do. Like the time Jose told me, ‘Can James and Lily get together at the end of Sixth year instead of the seventh?’ I really did think hard about this but then I didn’t because…the relationship would be built on a horribly unstable foundation and it definitely won’t work out. And they need the summer to just…reflect and think things through. Couples do need the space to think and reflect. And most importantly, they need time to recover and rest.
Well, I did get a good comment (again, from Jose), she said, ‘I really don’t like Carly. SHE HAS GOT TO GO.’ This inspired me for Sirius’ quote on James and Carly, if you can still remember. So you see, feedback is really, really important and helpful to a writer. So thank you to all who commented, especially Ophelia and Jose who have given me so much help. Thank you, so much.
Last but not least, I'd like to thank all who have stuck with me until today. From the first chapter of the 'James and Lily Summary' (which was the VERY first fanfiction and the first chapter was about mandrakes, if you forgot) until the last chapter of the Sixth year. Thank you all for your support. And thank you for reading it because it wouldn't be a story if there weren't readers. Thank you.
Love,
Rachelle
James has always been so damned nice and kind to Lily. He's such a gentleman. That's one of the many reasons why I love James.
There is going to be something like this in the 'seventh year and beyond' fanfiction when James is really, really depressed. And... I shouldn't disclose too much. :P
Marauders' Charm. Padfoot looks good in this one.
Harry James Potter through the ages.
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