I don’t know if I have ADHD or not. It’s like an on-and-off thing. Sometimes I have it, sometimes I don’t. It wasn’t like this in SIS. But at the end of P6, I couldn’t stop moving my feet or legs and lost focus easily. Now, it really gets to me…
When it’s on, I can’t stop twitching. My fingers or my toes. They are restless. Non-stop probing around. Sometimes I move my legs in the rhythm of my heartbeat. Thump-thump-thump… Sometimes I cross my legs the other way every twenty seconds, my stomach keeps churning and my hands keep itching. I lose focus easily.
5 minutes, stare outside for 2 minutes.
10 minutes of homework, change position.
15 minutes, take a spin around my room on my chair with wheels.
20 minutes, 10 minutes of Doodle Jump or something on my iPod.
30 minutes, read a chapter of a book.
45 minutes, change location.
1 hour, watch half an episode of vicTORIous or Big Time Rush or iCarly or whatever...
2 hours, 30 minutes on the Mac.
3 hours, a nap.
4 hours, never lasted that long. If I did, I would have went out for half the day afterwards.
Sometimes, when I drank a Coke or tea, it would either calm me down or turn me on HYPER-SLASH-NINJA-SLASH-TOTALLY-WIDE-AWAKE-SLASH-WORKAHOLIC mode. It’s a random choice.
Take last night for example; my dad brought back a can of Pepsi. He left it sitting on the table and thanks to body’s autopilot flipping on the ADHD, I couldn’t resist it, (when I’m in normal mode, I would have lectured my dad on calcium loss and cavities) I hesitantly went over to it and drank it all. Bad move. Seems like my body flicked the wrong switch AGAIN and made me turn and toss until midnight. Grrr… And sometimes when I go crazy, I will laugh at everything for a long time.
Once at dinner, I was giggling at my rice, then chuckling at my greens, after that, I was in stitches when my mom told me I was getting on her nerves from all that laughing.
The weirdest time was at the P6 class party, I had a can of Coke and I drank it all. Then I started to get VVVEEEEERRRRRRYYYYY SSSSLLLLLEEEEEEPPPPPPPYYYYYYY… I wanted to sleep right then and there in the middle of the party. And we were watching a movie so all the lights were off. I actually dozed off for twenty minutes.
Oh, and believe it or not, I have mild dyslexia. Yes, I read a lot but when I am not in the mood or sometimes it randomly pops in, the words are meaningless squiggles. I tried to re-read the Harry Potter series over the summer but I could barely get past Prisoner of Azkaban. The Harry’s and Ron’s and Buckbeak’s all turned into gibberish and I had to set down the book and tackle it later. Sometimes, it pays me a visit when I’m doing homework. Especially during comprehensions, I would be reading the passage and I don’t even realize I skipped a full paragraph! I would see a question about that paragraph and I would be like wondering my ass off if the question was a stupid joke. I would ask my parents and they would point it out to me and I can’t believe my eyes. I was pretty sure it wasn’t there when I read it!!
Once, it came in a Math quiz. I missed a full section on negative integers when I thought it were INSTRUCTIONS and when I got it back, I had a big zero in that section. And I would be “Hey! It was there? I thought it was something else!!”
My mom and dad don’t know about me having ADHD and dyslexia. They would yell at me for staying up so late or breaking things when I take a spin around my home or shaking my leg when sitting and moving so much or not concentrating because of ADHD. Then when I mess up on my test because of dyslexia, they yell at me even more and say I have a problem. I reply and say I do have a problem but I don’t tell them about my dyslexia or ADHD.
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